Tuesday 21 December 2010

"I really must stop saying sorry; it doesn't make things any better or worse"
Stephen Fry

Blogging is supposed to be an honest endeavour isn't it?
Well...
More about me and what makes me, well, me...
I honestly believe that I have spent my whole life trying to be appreciated.
Please don't assume that the things that follow make me a 'nice' person, they are in part, an effort to gain praise or just some form of appreciation from people. There is probably some Freudian or psychological explanation for my behaviour in general life, yet I see it as a form of normality. Don't you secretly crave or just appreciate the simple 'thanks' or just a hug from someone that cares?
I enjoy making people smile. A simple task you would think but not all the time. I've bought flowers for, created things for, massively gone out of my way for and gone into debt for people only to get- "yeah that's nice" or "cheers". I never want anything back, just the occasional phone call or text maybe asking how I am. I guess I'm just one of life's forgettable individuals. I just hurts when the one person you always hope wouldn't make you feel small and insignificant, does.
Woe is me? Nah! I keep my head down and attempt to devise my next scheme to make someone happy.
Oh, and if I've ever forgotten to thank anyone or appreciate them, it was a massive oversight and truly, honestly, not meant. Apologies again? Bad Kris!

"The more you ignore me, the closer I get"
Morrissey

I'll start by saying, ignorance is NOT bliss.
I work for a good company, (who for obvious reasons will remain unnamed) and they treat me like a person. I previously worked for other large businesses and I was either a piece of meat to be moved at will or a faceless, nameless number.
That seems to be the problem with modern commerciality, there is no personal touch if everything is to the company script. Building relationships and understanding customer wants and needs come second to productivity and footfall. Would not footfall increase if you know your customers? In a fast paced retail environment there should always be time for a genuine "how are you?" and taking those few seconds to actually listen to the reply. The same goes for the people that are colleagues. A few years ago an individual once said very succinctly to me, "Knowing and undertanding your team costs nothing but gains lots, in trust and pounds". Since, I always try to dig a little deeper and get to know the people I work with. Doing this has gained me friendships that will hopefully last a lifetime. One such relationship has caused me incredible heartache but the immeasurable happiness, adventure and companionship I have experienced more than counterbalance the negatives. About said person you will, in future posts, hear about ad nauseum.
I'll finish here with a smile and hopefully the line that if you reached this part makes you return for the next installment...
Yes, there is someone I have a crush on...

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